mia-meow

hello,
I have nothing specific to write about so I guess I'll just ramble and perhaps in amongst my ramblings you will find a pinch of something that will make sense. Also I have been told that rambling for a while gets rid of a brain blockage and that's what I think I need.
So today I was thinking about friendship and what it means to different people and how the importance of friendship can change from one person to another. And when I think about things really hard and analyse (perhaps over-analyse as I tend to do) everything, I am a person whose mood is swayed a lot by friendship. In general I feel like being a teenager is a roller-coaster ride of emotions, some days you can feel really great, you feel like talking to everyone and jumping around and just being happy. Other days you feel like talking to nobody, sitting down with a book and just avoiding social niceties. What sucks about those days is that other people (who should have felt a need for a day like this sometime?) seem to think there is something majorly wrong when really you just want some chill, some time for yourself.
I think the thing (with me) is that when I feel like I'm being included and when someone says something nice to me or even the odd hello from someone who doesn't usually say hello or when my friends and I have had really good, honest, personal, meaningful chat, it makes my day.
Other times when people don't say hello or I spend time with people I don't necessarily enjoy spending time with and therefore become quiet and reserved, it affects my whole day.
Maybe the thing I need to take from this is that I should start feeling more content with the things I do for myself instead of letting others be the sole masters of my emotions. Is this an independence issue or insecurity issue or both?
I'm sure i'm not the only one who feels like this so maybe I can try and make others happy by saying the occasional hello to someone I don't usually speak to or say something nice to a person who is looking down.
In general I think I'm pretty lucky friendship wise, I have great friends who I can talk about anything to and friends who are always there to cheer me up and share a laugh...so really most days have a high point :)
meow x